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I’ve been on hiatus for a few months. As much as I love writing, I found myself losing passion due to personal issues. I’ve always wanted to write from the heart and find meaning in experiences. But you know, sometimes things happen. And it can leave you feeling lost and empty.

 

Of being alone

Feeling that way forced me to hide inside my own shell. I engaged less, and I learned to escape the noises of the world by being alone.

At first, I was lonely…until I learned to find comfort in being alone. I stopped being attached to people. And I found out that the more time I spend with myself, the more I discovered things about myself too.

Little by little, I started seeing positivity, hope, and meaning in the things that I do. Once again, I saw a glimmer of light.

Finding myself

“In case you find yourself lost, start with the things that you know.”

A friend once told me that in case I find myself lost, I must start with the things that I know. And so I did. And in the hopes of grounding myself to something, I decided to stick to what I know about me:

1. I am who I am.

“You are who you are. Embrace your individuality.”

One thing that held me back in taking a step forward is that…things are about to change. But I am who I am right now. There is a chance for the future to change, but I wouldn’t let that steal the opportunities that come with the present. And so, I’ve decided to make the most of what I have right now. I am who I am right now. And that is okay.

2. I have varied interests and that makes me feel alive

“Do more of what makes you feel alive.”

At one point, I enjoyed drawing. At another, I was interested in baking. I buy a lot of things related to my “interest of the moment”, and I’ve been called out before for having different interests. But…is that really wrong?

Being alone made me realize that it’s part of my personality to have varied interests, and that’s okay. And as soon as I started accepting it, I found myself sketching again. I regained the thirst to revive my guitar. I have rediscovered my love for Asian drama (more about this soon). And being close to the arts helped bring out my emotions. No more repression, moving forward.

3. I can be emotional. And that’s okay.

“Emotions are creatures waiting to be tamed.”

I used to repress all emotional things because I was told that it makes me immature. But no one’s around to tell me that anymore.

I learned to be honest with the things that I feel: sadness, disappointments, or even the kilig that goes with watching a Korean drama. And the more I expressed my emotions, and the more honest I was with myself, the easier it was for me to manage it. And I won’t let anyone’s judgment affect me again.

4. Words are my best friend 

“Let your emotions escape through your fingertips…and just write.”

And since I’ve been close to my emotions, I started writing again. There’s just something about turning abstract feelings into concrete words, the feeling of immortalizing moments by turning them into stories…one that I can return to someday.


I randomly passed by National Bookstore and saw this notebook.  It wasn’t the first one I saw, but staring at the cover stirred emotions inside of me. And so I know that it’d be the perfect place to keep my narratives.

Since I’ve started writing again, I knew that I’ll go back to blogging soon. I missed sharing my stories. I missed hearing the thoughts of other people. I also missed seeing myself happy when I can express myself in a blog post. 

Bouncing back

During my hiatus, one thing that struck me the most was getting random messages from people checking on me and my blog. I received messages from blogger friends that they missed seeing my posts. And that made me feel really appreciated in what I do.

So, last night, as I got lost inside my own thoughts, I asked myself: What is stopping me from blogging? What is stopping me from doing something that I want?

“What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”

The past months were really hard for me, but I’m grateful that the lessons that went with it were really important ones. It helped me find strength that I’ve never had before. It also made me discover things about myself that I never knew (or paid attention to) before. And most importantly, I was able to discover the people who really care about me, and that is one thing I will forever be grateful for.

And so…here I am. I’ll be revamping my blog soon to reflect the changes in my life, but until then, here I am bouncing back. And not only bouncing back, but definitely bouncing higher.

Did you miss me? Holler back or leave a comment if you did! 🙂

Enjoy life. Cheers!

~Nina

 

26 Comments

  1. Sam Coronado (@followyouroad)

    Very insightful post. I can relate to most of your experiences. I had identity crisis way back in high school, and it was really difficult. Now, I have come to accept who I am. And I’m a bundle of contradictions and interests that sometimes people find hard to understand. And that’s okay. I’ve come to accept that it makes me an interesting person, and I don’t have to try to fit in 🙂

    18 . Oct . 2016
  2. Orana Velardew

    Hello and welcome back to blogging nina. I also go through times like these where I feel like I just can’t blog, or write, or even be creative at all. These are the moment when you grow the most. All the best for you and your blog. CHeers!

    11 . Oct . 2016
  3. Airina Desuyo

    Aww… It’s nice to see you back! But no pressure! That’s the beauty of blogging: you can always come back and felt like you have never left 🙂

    airinaapril.blogspot.com

    11 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      That is true! Picking up on life just feels natural. I super missed sharing my stories <3

      11 . Oct . 2016
  4. Nadine Smith (Scenes From Nadine)

    “At one point, I enjoyed drawing. At another, I was interested in baking. I buy a lot of things related to my “interest of the moment”, and I’ve been called out before for having different interests. But…is that really wrong?” –My dear, that is NOT wrong. That is who you are. I experienced the same after my numerous career changes. People thought I was indecisive, lost, confused, etc. but I just haven’t found my true calling yet. And I realized that having different interests can actually be an asset! 🙂 Also, it’s so great that you are back to blogging. Even if you only have one reader but you change that one reader’s life, that’s pretty great!

    11 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Nadine, this is so inspiring! I agree that having different interests can be an asset. I’m not sure about my calling as well, but for now, I make time for the things that I want. I’m pretty sure it will just unfold one day. Thanks for visiting my site! <3

      11 . Oct . 2016
  5. Marge

    What happened to you is normal, it happens to the best of us and when it does, embrace the process. And it looks like it did you a ton of good. You had some great realizations. Being alone is okay, in fact I highly recommend that people do it sometimes; to step back from the world, be along with your thoughts. It does wonders to the soul.

    10 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      I agree! I really felt renewed after spending time with myself. I didn’t realize that spending time alone is really important. Now, I know better 🙂

      11 . Oct . 2016
  6. Ma.Me.Mi.Mommy

    I can so relate with having so many varied interests and buying things for them. I think it’s a good idea to have this alone time to know yourself more. It makes you resilient against what others may be saying because deep inside you know and you have discovered who you are.

    10 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Resilience, yes! That was probably my mistake when I was younger. I would just wing things and take things as they are, and forget to spend time to know myself more. Now, I know better, so I have a greater anchor…my individuality! 🙂

      11 . Oct . 2016
  7. Shai Habon

    This post is so inspiring! I’m happy that you are now okay and you’ve embraced yourself. It’s true that you just have to make the most out of everything and welcome change as it is! <3

    10 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Thanks, Shai! Sometimes, I forget change is inevitable so I cling on the past. But I guess, we can’t prevent change, so yes..we just have to make the most out of everything <3

      11 . Oct . 2016
  8. Sriparna Saha

    Cheers to life! I think, most of us (if not all) do go through a few phases in life when we take shelter in our shells! But if we’re really strong and come out of it after a few fights within, we’re capable of leading a changed life,with a wider range of thought processes! It’s an amazing transformation…

    10 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Very well said, Sriparna! Sometimes, the best answers are found within ourselves. And like a butterfly, we really undergo amazing transformations after finding our true self 🙂

      11 . Oct . 2016
  9. Laveena Sengar

    This is a great post. I totally believe that finding yourself is the best thing you can ever have to yourself and embracing your individuality is the most important part.

    09 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Thanks, Laveena! It truly is. Thanks for visiting my site! 🙂

      11 . Oct . 2016
  10. Ferna

    This is my first time to stumble upon your blog and I’m honestly happy that you are back. For me, being alone or embracing being just our own self, being away from the crazy world, is a good thing in order to regain more energy. I’ve done what you did, and frankly, I still do the same especially when hormones is acting reaaaaalllllyyyy crazy, it’s the time that I usually just get myself into those emotions and let it go for I know after those crazy time, there will be unstoppable energy 😀 Congrats and will be reading more to your blog.

    09 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Hi Ferna! Glad to hear that I’m not alone in having the urge to escape the world sometimes. It’s also a way for me to renew…me time is really important! 🙂

      11 . Oct . 2016
  11. Maria

    Great to hear you are back! Sometimes, we really need to get away from the things that may somehow affect our usual flow. The toxic factors can really kill someone’s vibe. I had a struggle with creating designs and I accepted the fact that it’s normal. There are those days really. I hope, you’re back for good! I love reading your posts. Sending some virtual *huuuuug* ??

    09 . Oct . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Thanks, Maria! Taking a breather was really helpful since it helped me reflect on the things that I really want. The past months were crazy – I felt like a shaken snow globe! But now that everything’s clearer, I feel more positive about the future. <3

      11 . Oct . 2016
  12. Neri Ann

    Glad that you are back! 🙂

    14 . Sep . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Excited to be back as well 🙂

      06 . Oct . 2016
  13. Me-An Clemente

    Missed you Nina <3 I'm happy that you found yourself . Indeed, sometimes we just need to get away from all the noise so we can appreciate life and become happier than we ever did before. I'm excited to see Nina version 2.0 – someone who is bouncing higher from happiness.

    13 . Sep . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Missed you too! <3 And I'm excited for myself too. I've made changes in my life (and on the blog too!). Can't wait to share my stories again 🙂

      06 . Oct . 2016
  14. Madz

    Saw that same notebook after you posted it! Glad to see your post again.I agree being alone is a good thing especially when one is looking for clarity or a different perspective.

    13 . Sep . 2016
    • Nina Sogue

      Isn’t the notebook an attractive one? 🙂 Yes, alone time is really important. I can hear myself more when I’m away from the “noises” of the world 😀

      06 . Oct . 2016

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